Eli

Let me introduce you to Eli John.

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Michlynn Schweitzer Photography

Eli was born on the 25th of March 2015, and I have only recently caught my breath and footing. Holy moly having a second child is a bleary eyed whirlwind.

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People told me that going from one child to two was hard but…wow. That was an understatement. I was so unprepared for the way I would miss my firstborn. Also for the guilt I would feel for not having the time, patience, or strength to love on him. I didn’t know that my husband and I would become “single parents” – Scott taking full care of Arjen and me Eli. Divide and conquer was our mantra.

For the first 8 weeks I was pretty sure we ruined our quiet, scheduled, peaceful life. Not to say I didn’t breathe in every fresh moment of the newborn stage…I just love having that warm bundle lie on my chest. Taking in long draws of their sweet scent.

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That being said, I am happy to report that the fog did clear – each passing week made more sense and we have fallen into our own rhythm.

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Eli’s birth healed me in many ways. I spent much of the latter 1/2 of my pregnancy mentally preparing for his birth & delivery. Arjen’s birth went from transcendent and blissful to a blood bath horror show in a split second – I didn’t want the memory of that experience to loom over Eli’s arrival. And it didn’t.

Like his brother Eli was 12 days past date. I had to release my hopes for a home birth as we headed to the hospital for induction.

God met us there in the form of my midwife. Truly. She ushered us to a birthing room and told us that she had convinced the OB to allow her 6 hours to get me into labor…and it happened within 30 minutes of my waters being broken. God is good, *he satisfies.

Labor and delivery could not have gone better. I was able to deliver on my own terms, hold my baby immediately and for a long time. That was an indescribable feeling. I missed that with my first, and I prayed that I would get to hold this babe right away. Again, He satisfies.

And now…Eli is almost 4 months old! I honestly forgot how quickly they change. He’s now rolling over, laughing, smiling, responding, and generally adhering to the rhythm of his days.

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I so look forward to finding out who he  is, what his little personality will be, how he and Arjen will interact.

I know one day these boys will tower over me. I know that they will eat me out of house and home. I know they will shy away when I try to kiss them in the school yard. But I also know that they will always know that their mom & dad love them with all that we are.

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*This song from WorshipMob came over my ear buds when I was about a week overdue and feeling desperate. The truth in this song spoke to my heart and lived themselves out in Eli’s arrival. Take a listen, I hope your just as blessed.

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2 thoughts on “Eli

  1. Sooooo nice to read your inspired writing again…I’ve missed your blog! Thanks for sharing your thoughts with us all.
    Love, Mum

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